I grew up in a house with 29 other young people . The environment and, gender, and age uncounciously segmentsunconsciously segmented us into 3three groups.

All manner of things happened in that house , one is such isof which was verbal abuse by my older sibling . Every thing I have come to believe about myself I heard from my sibling. My sense of identity and self esteem, self-esteem, and self acceptanceself-acceptance was eroded.

Growing up underin this environment created huge internal syrugglesstruggles coupled with the disconnect between me and. Mymy parents . I remember how difficult it is for asa young adult to look at the opposite person in the face.

I heard the word Iwords “I love youyou” directly offered to me firstfor the first time at the age of 30, and I couldn't give it to any one because I don't I havehad not received it before.

I find it awkward to connect with others. I vividly, recall the day my a woman gave me attention and listenlistened to me for the first time. theThe energy and vibration within me was that of she wasfrom her doing me this favour. I felt I don'tdidn't deserve her.